You and Tequila

 

 

 

 

"You and Tequila" Kenny Chesney feat. Grace Potter

 
I'm not sitting here sippin' on tequila or any alcohol for that matter.  I'm just feeling pretty mellow at the moment. This song pops on the radio almost every time I'm in my car lately...it's so pretty (well, at least to me).  It's 1:11 (make a wish) in the morning and my eyes are surprisingly heavy. Normally, the night would still be young for me. So, instead of attempting to write all that I'd love to...I'm going to wait til tomorrow, when I can keep my eyes open.

I was rummaging through old boxes over the weekend and found a paper from high school...one that a teacher gave our class at the end of the year with inspirational excerpts.
I thought I'd share it as it definitely left an impression on me today, more than it did 11 years ago. It was a paper titled...

The Rules For Being Human

1.}You will receive a body.
You may like it or hate it, but it will be yours
for the entire period of this time around.

2.}You will learn lessons.
You are enrolled in a full-time informal school
called LIFE. Each day in this school you will
have the opportunity to learn lessons. You may
like the lessons or think them irrelevant and
stupid.

3.}There are no mistakes, only lessons.
Growth is a process of trial and error :
Experimentation. The "failed" experiments are as
much a part of the process as the experiment
that ultimately "works"...

4.}A lesson is repeated until learned.
A lesson will be presented to you in various
forms until you have learned it. When you
have learned it, you can then go on the next
lesson.

5.}Learning lessons does not end.
There is no part of life that does not contain its
lessons. If you are alive, there are lessons to be
learned.

6.}"There" is no better than "here"...
When your "there" has become a "here", you
will simply obtain another "there" that will
again look better than "here"...

7.}Others are merely mirrors of you.
You cannot love or hate something about another
person unless it reflects something you
love or hate about yourself.

8.}What you make of your life is up to you.
You have all the tools and resources you need.
What you do with them is up to you. The
choice is yours.

9.}Your answers lie inside you.
The answers to Life's questions lie inside you.
All you need to do is look, listen and trust.

10.}You will forget all this.

Cherie Carter - Scott


Much like #3, I have to tell myself this so often when I'm banging my head against the wall, month after month with failed attempts.  And when I take a deep breath, I see it clearly...all the trial and error is getting us there.
#7 hit hard too...how many times are we quick to judge and then stop ourselves and think, "well I can't really talk, now can I"... 
#10 has so much truth to me.  Even though most of these are so easy to read and think, "well of course, I knew that already"...they are so easy to forget.  In times of trouble and heartache our problems can swell up so big inside of us that we forget to pay attention to what really matters.  We forget that we are responsible for our actions and how we react to what is thrown at us each day.

I could keep writing now that I'm in the groove, but I'm trying to be good and get some rest.  This weekend was a good one.  It was productive as much as it was unproductive.  It was emotional and mellow at the same time.  It was relaxing as it was trying. 
This battle can get the best of you some days.
This battle can make the best of you some days.
In these lessons I'm learning, I know that it's okay to have up n' down days...one minute happy...next sad.  One day crazy.  One day sane. 
It's a constant fight to feel human...to feel like I'm not going out of my mind sometimes.
And the days and nights that are filled with tears of every emotion feel good to me right now.  I have to trust that they are going to someday bring me to more happy tears than any.  Did you ever notice it almost feels addicting to just "feel"...to not feel numb.  This weekend has opened up my senses even more...the couple runs I went on felt wonderful and I plan on some more when I wake up.

"One more night could kill me, baby
  One is one too many, one more is never enough"

"When it comes to you
  Oh, the damage I could do
  It's always your favorite sins
  That do you in"

Okay, it's time for me to catch some sleep.  I have some more miles to run. I will be back later, my friends! Thank you all for your amazing words! <3

Happy Monday!!
I hope everyone enjoyed their weekend!
I hope that the "lessons" you learn today are good ones...and ones that you appreciate! <3
Goodnight!

Twinkie, Krimpet, Muffin and I on sleepy, Saturday night <3

See you very soon! <3