"Never Grow Up" Taylor Swift
It was just me and the kitties this afternoon. I opened up the sliding door to finally get some fresh, "real" air in the house and within moments, Twinkie and Muffin pranced their way over to find the perfect spot to watch the raindrops dance around the deck. I often wonder what they must be thinking as they so intently stare outside. I've got a feeling they've got quite the imagination.
This weekend got my own imagination working. It got me reminiscing. It added extra weight to my heart, leaving it heavy with love and the joy of innocence.
I didn't let "the crazies" get to me too much. I told myself that I was allowed to start wondering and driving myself crazy once it was over...and I've kept too busy to let them rain on my parade. Though, I'm going to say around Wednesday I will have a visit from them. :)
Thursday night I left my Mom's house with a huge box of my teenage keepsakes that were left in the attic. This weekend she is completing her move to my Nani's. I came home and spent hours rummaging through it all. The contents of the box had me laughing out loud, smiling and wiping tears filled with those sweet memories of being a kid again. The sight of a picture that used to hang in my old bedroom, all my favorite knick knacks, little trinkets that take me to a place where things were a bit simpler. A time where when things got tough, I could close the door behind me in my room, wind up the ballerina music box sitting on my shelf and let my fears and insecurities get lost in her twirling round and round.
This weekend Steve and I went to see Harry Potter. I fully admit to mocking it when I was younger and not seeing what all the fuss was about. Over the past few years, I'm seeing many things in a new light...and I found myself pleasantly surprised to have my eyes locked on the screen for the 2 and a half hours in the theater. I honestly used to just think all it was, was a bunch of little kid magicians on a mission...and in a sense, it is. But, I didn't notice all the lessons that were woven throughout the movie. I couldn't believe it when I actually got teary eyed at the end. Crying comes just as easy as laughing to me...but at a Harry Potter movie?! Who was this woman sitting next to Steve?!...surely, not me. In one of the last scenes when Dumbledore (the old me would totally make fun of me for blogging a paragraph about Potter) is talking to Harry, he says, "Words are, in my not-so-humble opinion, our most inexhaustible source of magic. Capable of both inflicting injury, and remedying it"
(I totally had to look up the exacts, you know I didn't remember that word for word)
Those words touched me and rang so true.
Me and Steve after the movie
Ahhh, Taco Bell...how I missed thee...it was a whole 31 days since our last visit... *yea, I totally went to check my blog to see the last date we had it :)
Me and the Minimuffin..."Get your taco bell breath away from me, Mama"
This weekend we went to Chloe's birthday party. There was nothing but love surrounding her. Watching the stir of people all gathered to celebrate such a sweet little girl's first year of life...little ones running through each room with excitement, giddy at all that a birthday entails. The laughter heard from outside as they pranced through the sprinkler, the light in their eyes as they helped open presents, their chocolate stained faces and the caramel popcorn stickiness still left on their hands....
Times like these...
They makes you yearn to be a kid again...where life's simple pleasures are all you know in life. Children...they truly embrace what it is to live well. live free. live BIG.
One of my gifts to Chloe was an album containing all of our memories together in the past year.
as you can see, I love photos and I LOVE Chloe. :)
She was ready to exchange her dinner for some hard earned sugar. Who doesn't love watching a newbie one year old tear into their own lil' birthday cake...instantly devouring it...leaving just as much icing on their face and fingers as the cake.
"Ok, this is my last bite...bring on the cake"
"I don't know what they're talking about...it's not that good"
"Oh, who am I kidding...this puts the zing in AMAZING"
"Must keep eating...nom nom nom nom...ughhh my belly has no more room"
"I can do anything with cheers from my sister"
"Okay girls...it's all yours...I can't breathe...I'm gonna
Kelly and Kurt did an awesome job creating the cutest beach themed Birthday!
Adorable skirt from Jessica
and the sweetest sweater to match...each flower was hand sewn by Jess...so talented!!!
Jessica even matched her gifts!! :)
Chloe and Mommy
After Chloe went to bed, with a belly full of goodness, the grown ups and Addison enjoyed some games outside.
Kelly and Addison
Kurt and Addison
Jessica joined in the fun.
Addison and I
Kelly Jessica and I
Steve and I
Kelly and Kurt
Jessica and Kelly
Jessica and I
Addison and Jessica being silly :)
The four of us
Funny faced Addison with Jessica
She wanted the funny faces to continue (ps-I look like I'm missing my teeth? lol)
Then, she asked to take a picture in which "Jessica and I needed to hug"
(she's a great photographer) love it!
I couldn't resist an Addison hug...
It was time for bed and Kelly invited us to join her and Addison while they did the "bedtime rituals"...
Bathtime, teeth brushing, pj time, it was too late for a bedtime story but never too late for a few prayers.
These times send me back...
I remember getting so excited when it was bathtime, putting on a fresh pair of cute pajamas and picking out a story or two...and then saying my prayers with my Mom.
and it's a beautiful thing to see some things don't change.
I left with many more photos to add to my collection... and many more sweet memories...
Me and Kelly
Looking through that old box of keepsakes on Thursday, was a picture that brings me back to when Kelly and I were 9 years old...bff's for-eva... still dressed alike from "twin day" at school earlier that day and ready to "get our sleepover on" at my house. *tear
Me and Kelly 20 years ago
Didn't we all say it at some point in our life?
"I want to grow up...
I cant wait till I'm 18...21...
It will be so much better when I can do this or that"
I wouldn't trade my life now for anything...but I love watching life through a child's eyes. It's nice to go back every now and then...to just soak up the times when your imagination really made everything in those moments come true...
Times where you could...
*Stick those plastic cookies in your Fisher Price oven and WAA LAAA...a dozen freshly baked chocolate chip cookies were ready to eat in the matter of a few seconds.
*Dress Barbie up for a date...her looking cute as ever in a tight little mini skirt, complete with heels and a baby tee and know...Barbs ain't gettin' called a hoochie Mama for it.
*Take your pick out of your collection of baby dolls, swaddle them up in a soft, fuzzy blanket and instantly become their Mommy...
"Oh, I don't wanna grow up...wish I'd never grown up
I could still be little
Oh, I don't wanna grow up...wish I'd never grown up
It could still be simple"
Tonight, as I was helping my Mom with my Nani...I was rooting through a cabinet and found a fresh new box of crayons from well over a decade ago. I took them home and have been drawing with them on paper that is as old as me.
And if keeping the side effects away of - one week down, one more left...of the two week wait, means a little therapy from a box of vibrant colors...
Well, then I'll take it.
Wishing everyone a Happy Tuesday.
Sending out lots of love to so many of you <3