Fade Into You

"Fade Into You" - Mazzy Star

If it's possible to be extremely mellow while bouncing off the walls at the same time, then that - I am.

I didn't expect tonight to be a "fall asleep at a normal hour" kinda night.

I also didn't expect to feel so completely at ease.

I mean, there's only less than 7 hours standing between now and my appointment.

I don't mind feeling a bit blank as to what's about to truly take effect.

Because, I know that once these 7 hours pass, the emotions, the memories, even some flashbacks...

They will all start rolling in.  I'll be ready for them.  I trust in that.

So tonight, I sit and watch my beloved Lifetime movies. I write. I take a bubble bath...maybe two.

And then, I try and get some rest.

I woke up today feeling kinda off and a bit yucky. There's been promising on and off activity on my right side.  So, egg(s), get to hatchin'.

We're ready!!

I'm taking it as a good sign. And hoping that tomorrow, we will get some answers as to when the next step (our IUI) will be scheduled.

This month is wasting no time at moving right along. It's funny, I always said March was the most boring, uneventful month of the year.  A slow, somewhat lifeless block of time.

Well, March 2012 has sure proved me wrong. And, I'm not complaining.

I got into quite a little habit this week.  You see that big bag of glorious sugar below...

It was much fuller a few days ago.  My mom sent it our way on Monday. Steve and I have been unwrapping like crazy.

Forget that most of it is two and a half month old Christmas candy...

I promise, it still tastes good.  Thanks mom - for the candy.  And for the new addiction. 

I don't usually get into chocolate that much.

But this week, it has been calling my name.

So much, that when I wake up and take my vitamins, I pop a few pieces too.

Hey, they're mood boosters.

And, they've got a little inspiration inside too.

Sweet words I've clung to in this journey.

Words, I'll be clinging to even tighter in the coming weeks and months.

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Last week, we celebrated Addison's 4th Birthday one more time.

My gift to her...lunch at our favorite "old lady" spot for endless soup, salad and breadsticks.  And a lil' shopping spree at Five Below and Charlie Girl.

Back off my breadstick!

Kelly and I both agreed, this was too much of a "Mom" color.  We talked her into a new hue.

Decisions, decisions.

Chloe found the dvd she had been searching high and low for.

A day with this lady and her girls never disappoints.

<3

Friday night, as we were heading out, a very full moon was shining brightly over our neighborhood.

We drove into the city to celebrate Vanessa's birthday.

There were lots of laughs and tons of singing. A mix of loud n' out of tune singing, with a few pretty voices mixed in.

We celebrated - karaoke style...

Sing it, birthday girl!

Steve, Matt and Doug...lovin' their enthusiasm!

I'm pretty sure this was "Livin' On A Prayer."

Even the Beebs made an appearance.

And yes, we said farewell, swaying back and forth, belting out "A Whole New World."

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We took a day trip to Baltimore to visit Jamie and Leslie.  We're excited to hear happy, new baby news in the next week or two.

Tilly, rockin' her tough girl outfit.

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Monday night, Kelly, Jessica and I got together for dinner.  4 hours, a few pasta dishes and a chicken panini later, and

 I had to break out my camera. I'll spare you the 25 "fashion show with a garlic knot and chili flake shaker" photos that Kelly snapped for us. But, here are a few that made the cut.

Okay, here's one from the fashion show.

I happen to think we look the best we ever have in this shot.

This one's not bad either.

Looking forward to another dose of Kelly and Jessica in the coming days!

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This week, it has been unbelievably warm and beautiful outside.  It's going to be 73 degrees tomorrow.  I'm going to do my best to soak up the sunny weather 

and keep a positive attitude.

When we walk into that doctor's office tomorrow, I'll "trust my heart and not my head."

And I'll allow myself to feel any emotion that comes my way.

I'm thankful for a mellow night.

And prepared for an emotional, fresh, new day.

Happy Almost Thursday. <3

I'll come back this weekend for some reflecting. <3

Bright New Lovin',