Thursday, August 23, 2012

Where I've Been

I wrote last week's post in the bathtub of our hotel room.
And tonight's post, I'm writing from bed.



I've surrendered.
Sleep wins. Rest is my new bff.
The past week has gone a little something like this...
Eat. Nap. Clean. Puke. Eat. Sleep. Puke. Sleep. Repeat.
I won't sit lay here and lie...I'm not feeling so hot. 
But when I put things into perspective and think about the past almost three years...
It really hits me.
The emotional always far surpassed the physical in this journey.
No matter how bad the physical pain might have been, the emotional masked it - taking over 99%.
And now, finally, I can say...
The physical wins. And that's something to be grateful for after all the hurt and longing and despair.
I finally know what it's like to feel like I just got shot with a tranquilizer gun in both ass cheeks while getting run over by a stampede of buffalo.
But this time, it's because I'm pregnant.
I can say that out loud now and truly feel like this is gonna be it - our sticky one.
Every once in a while, it scares the hell out of me how sure and faithful I feel about this baby.
But mostly, I feel this insane rush of happy and giddy emotion.
 Lately, I think about...
Where I've been.  New changes I notice each day.  The changes that are to come.
The beauty of this crazy, wonderful ride.
(All things that I plan on writing about in the coming weeks/months.)
***
This journey has graced me with so many powerful relationships.
Some new and
some old - strengthened and filled with love.
In the beginning, I remember feeling so alone at times. 
But, I realized quickly that we're never alone.
Everyone has their struggles.
More importantly, everyone has dreams they hope to fulfill someday.
I've been blessed every day by women who keep on chuggin' and never give up no matter how steep the climb.
And last week, I was lucky enough to meet one of those women.
Steve and I packed up the SUV and headed to Boston.
A trip we've been wanting to take for a long time.
But now, it came with a bonus...



My friend, Julia, and her family.



I "met" Julia almost immediately after starting my blog last April.
It wasn't long before we were sharing daily emails and lengthy text-a-thons about everything and anything...and, our desire for a family.
She inspired me with her strength and determination to keep on going and never lose hope.
Her beautiful babes,
Chloe


and Felipe


are proof of that. 
<3

It was a wonderful two days together.  Julia and her husband, Felipe, welcomed us into their home.
Introduced us to the best Chinese take-out ever.
And even shared a Taco Bell feast with us.

The guys meant business...

Hungry Zesty


Hungry Felipe


I'm so thankful that -  

*Our two days together went by slowly.
*I've made connections with such beautiful people.
*We could just totally be ourselves together and have fun and be goofy.  And send hilarious texts through the bedroom wall.
*Julia didn't get mad at me when I started dry heaving on her in the kitchen.

*I know this girl...


The two cutest guys in the house.  Sorry, Steve and Felipe.




I was talking about the size of a vitamin container.  I swear.



Steve, about to stuff Latte in his pocket.




I cried instantly at this pretty and thoughtful handmade gift from Julia.


That's Beano in there!



Precious munchkins. <3



I'm so thankful for the chances I've taken along the way.
They've led me to amazing places.
They've led me
to amazing friends.




I love you, Julia. <3
(And Chloe and Felipe and Felipe and Latte!)


<3<3<3

Steve and I loved our time in Boston.
It was relaxing, romantic and full of charm.



We had an awesome view from our hotel room.
I admit, I could have slept the day away.
But luckily, I got a second wind just when I needed it.



So, we walked.
And took in the gorgeous day.





















And later, after a snooze and shower...
an evening stroll for some grub and sugar.


Steve was kind enough to tell me I had a little bit of spinach in my teeth.



I want this every single night.









It was a trip we will always remember. <3





***

Time to close this laptop and get to bed.

Here's a picture from last Thursday's appointment.
 8 and a half weeks and growing strong!
<3



Good night, friends.
Thank you for your amazing support.  <3



Tired, Kinda Pukey but Thankful Lovin',



41 comments:

Miki's scrapbook said...

Awe, it makes me super happy to know the baby is growing strong! And time spent with friends, old or new, is time well spent! ;D

Have a wonderful weekend, wonderful woman!

Miki.

~Rian said...

Love, love, love! So glad you had such an amazing trip! Whatever that dessert is....i want it! In my belly right now!! Lol. You look amazing for someone who is puking. :) I love the handmade thing with Beano's picture, totally made me tear up. So happy Beano is so strong. I can't wait for the rest of your journey through this pregnancy and seeing you with him/her in your arms. Ahhhhh....makes me shed tears thinking about it. Sleep lots, sweetie! You deserve it!

Xoxo

Kathy Radigan said...

What a great post!!! You look great, I'm so happy for you and Steve. You really bring me back to my pregnancy with our first child and how grateful I was for every ache and pain because I had wanted it for so long!!! I have found the pain of my past miscarriages to be the strangest type of gift because it has made me so grateful for the everyday, ordinary and often messiness of pregnancy and motherhood. Everything tastes that much sweeter. I'm so happy that you are getting to experience that joy!!! Much love!!

Kathy

Yokasta Schneider said...

Excellent post!! Thanks for brining us into your world.

Mrs. E said...

I miss you!!! And our awkward hand-on-hip poses lol :) sooo much love heading your (and zesty and beano's) way!!!!

Kelsey Harrington said...

You kill me. You are so funny! Hang tight with the sickness, it won't be much longer. Then you'll be feeling the little Beano kick woohoo!! And then when you know what it is I can shower (him-hehe) with gifts! And wow, Boston looks amazing!! And you're great at taking pictures. Some of those should be blown up and hung in your casa. Okay- I love you! Xoxo

JP said...

It is great to hear from you and to hear that things are progressing nicely.
It looks like you had an amazing trip. MH wants to take me to Boston - I've never been, but he has.
Um, the crepes that Steve had look AMAZING. SO, if I ever do head to MA, I am going to need to know where to head for those babies!
Much love. Rest up. You look fabulous.
JP

M said...

I've missed your weekly blog posts, but I'm so glad that you are taking time to enjoy life and meet new people. It's so good to read your happy posts!! Sending lots of positive thoughts your way <3

Our Journey Through This Lovely Life said...

AHHHH I LOVE IT!!! I WANNA GO NEXT TIME!! What a FUN trip!! I LOVE all the pictures! What amazing memories you all made :) I love that gift from Julia how adorable is that! It made me tear up! Boston looks beautiful! Fabulous news from your appointment! Have a lovely weekend lady!
Alexis~

Julia P F said...

congrats! Thanks for linking up on Freaky Friday!

Judy Haughton-James said...

Hi Maria,
Wonderful inspirational post with beautiful pictures as always. I am so happy for you and Steve! I pray for you both and Beano regularly! Keep on keeping on! I just know that everything is going go work out fine. It is great that you got a chance to spend time with your friend Julia and her family. I see that she has twins! Wonderful! Take good care and have yourself a great weekend! Lots of Love, Friendship and Best wishes always.
Judy

Kari said...

Love this!!! I'm so happy for you and Steve!! And yay for getting to meet Julia, F, and the twins!!<3<3<3

I miss Boston-I love that city so much!!

Thinking of you!! xoxoxo
PS Come to Indiana soon, please && thank you!!
PPS Just remember, mama, the sickness will eventually slow down! I promise! I'm only puking once a week now! Wooop wooop! ;)

xoxoxo

Kiara Buechler said...

Chloe and Felipe are so darling! Oh, and thanks, now I want to go to Taco Bell. LOL to the dry heaving in the kitchen, that's me every morning.

LOVE MELISSA:) said...

What fun times spent with friends! I love seeing your little bean. I have been praying for you! You were in Boston and didn't come visit:( I am only an hour away. If you ever come again, PLEASE CALL! I would love to meet you!! xoxo

waitingforarainbow said...

Girl, you lost me with the whole emotional physical mask, and one winning over the other thing. I read it over and over like 20 times, and still dont get it. I think I'm just too sleep deprived. Want to trade?:p
Sorry to hear you're feeling so yucky! I never puked once when I was pregnant! A little sad we didn't get a bump pic this week:(
Thats so sweet that you met Julia and her little cuties! Your journey, and this blog have taken you on so many adventures, and all over the map. I love how.... I can't think of the word... You are! Aha! Spontaneous? Is that the one I'm looking for?! Oh jeez.
By the way, do you have some sort of epic food radar built in your brain? How do you always find the best looking food! I'm so hungry now, but only for the food in the pictures you posted!
Glad all is well with your little fam:)
Mmwuah!<3 Heather

KERRY said...

I love all of your pictures Maria!! You guys are such a cute couple and what a fun weekend getting together with good friends. I think it is absolutely wonderful where and when you can meet and make a friend. Think of all the friends we haven't yet met?
Those babies are so adorable and cute!!
You look readiant and I can so see your baby bump in that maxi dress! :)
Have a fab weekend pretty lady, sending so much love your way and thank you for always visiting my blog and bringing sunshine into my day...I love you!!! xoxo

Yurie said...

So happy that you and the baby are doing well!!! So happy for you both!!! I love seeing all your pictures and reading how you guys are doing! My first trimester was hard on me with both my kids......second usually got better! Just hang in there and you should feel better in your second tri. With loving thoughts......

Yurie

Jess @ Life in the White House said...

So glad you're doing well and had such a fantastic time!

Isn't the Boston Public Gardens beautiful?! Love it there!

Jess @ Life in the White House said...

So glad you're doing well and had such a fantastic time!

Isn't the Boston Public Gardens beautiful?! Love it there!

Irish Carter said...

Oh wow! What an amazing and inspiring story. I hope the pregnancy sickness calms down a bit. You are a beautiful mom to be....I can wait for you to have that special moment-you deserve it so much.

I sometimes wonder if you really truly understand the inspiration that you leave and impose on others. It's contagious Maria--you are contagious with life and love. = )

I'm so glad you got to meet your friend Julia in person. Her and Filipe's babies are just adorable and Latte' too..oh my, Maddi would want to keep that little fur ball...adorable!

Sleep away my dear. Life is good!
Hugs and prayers as always.

Irish = )

Irish Carter said...

P.S. I was going to jump over to another site but I am stuck here jammin to your playlist and having a hard time leaving = P

Irish

Heather Nelsen said...

What a sweet post! I'm so glad you guys got away and had great times with friends and with each other. Chloe and Felipe are adorable! And lil Beano is lookin pretty cute too. ;)

Hope you have a wonderful week, Maria!

~Heather

Bobbie Anne said...

Awesome pics, thanks for sharing. I am dropping in from Mommy Mingle, have a great day!

Bobbie Ane

Brittany said...

Boston looks amazing and so do YOU!!!! What a glowing little Momma you are! The food....oh the food...why must you always torture us ;)? You guys eat at the BEST places! I'm sorry you've been feeling not so great lately...I just kept telling myself that it was a sign of Baby's growth and well-being :). Always made me feel a little better.

How neat is your Beano picture from Julia?!? That's awesome! What a sweet, sweet gift that you can keep and cherish forever.

Hoping you, Steve, and lil Beano have a wonderful week!!!!

p.s. Can we get a bump picture/update soon pretty please? :)

Cami said...

There's just too many things to comment on..ha!
FIRST - I wish I lived near you. So we could hang out and you could take amazing photos of me. Haha!! ;) I love your camera & what you see through your camera. If that makes sense? You have an eye for photography <3
That garden is beautiful..wow!
Julia's gift is so beautiful and precious.
You really eat at the best places...you always make me hungry ;)
Hope my favorite little family is having an amazing week <3

Rachel Marie said...

So happy to see you out smiling and going on new adventures ... dry heaving and all :D Your story is such an inspiration to so many. I am so lucky to have found your blog, and become bloggie friends with you Maria :) I am thrilled to see you and Steve so happy. Loved the pictures and I'm glad you got to meet someone so special to you.

Olivia {i am still learning} said...

What a fun and beautiful trip!

And although I hate the fact that you feel so sick, I know it's your body doing what it should, it's comforting... I was the same way. So happy for you Mama!

Julie Marie said...

Maria! Ive been thinking about you and wondering how things are going? I'm glad to see things are looking well. love that sweet gift you got from your blog friend. so cute :)

Stephanie N. said...

Maria,

I've been wondering what you've been up to! I'm so happy to hear about the eat-sleep-puke routine... lol. And that's okay to include puke in that, right? I mean... it's a healthy part of pregnancy that we all must deal with, right? ;)

I'm happy to hear (and see!) that you're still living life to the absolute fullest regardless of the new physical pains. :) You are truly blessed with great people in your life -- new friends, old friends, family -- I just LOVE reading about it all and seeing your pictures.

Here's to hoping this week is full of wonderful sleep, less pukey moments, and more delicious deserts! :)

<3<3<3

carlia said...

sounds like such a fun trip! the pics are amazing! and, how adorable are those babies?!? too cute for words! i'm so glad little beano is growing strong. i'm still keeping you in my thoughts and prayers that this pregnancy will continue to go well and bring a healthy little beano into the world! hugs!

Angela said...

Finally snuck in some free wi-fi time since the move just so I could stalk your blog :) Julia's family is beautiful, and so is Boston. So sorry that you are feeling so crappy :( But your perspective is amazing...the physical beats the emotional, and the beauty of that. Love it.
So happy that you are happy girly :) Thank you for sharing this, all of it!

Lauren said...

Of all the wonderful photos in this post, that last one is my very favorite :)
xoxoxo

waitingforarainbow said...

Geezohpetes no update yet?
MARIA! You have been M.I.A for so long! I'm thinking you and beano need to come out of hibernation, or taco bell coma... Lol, whatever it is, you need to snap out of it. At least long enough to update your blog:)
I was going to text you, but I didnt want to wake sleeping beauty;)
Hope your holiday weekend went great! Enjoy the rest of it:)

lovejoy_31 said...

WHERE ARE YOU?????? Check your email. I checked, but I'm still going to double-check again. I don't have your cell #. I have your address, but no #. Off I go to check again. I will wake you up if I find it. Missing your posts, girlie!!

Love to you and Steve,

xoxo
Joy

M said...

Just coming on here to say I miss your weekly posts :( I hope that you are doing well and starting to feel better. How far along are you now...godda be getting close to 11 weeks now?! Time is just flying by! Anyway, I'll give you a text here in a bit and see how it's going. Love to you, Steve and beano! <3

Rebecca said...

Glad baby is doing well :) Sorry for te dry heaves. Enjoy your time out and about.....I spent my first tri hiding at home. You look great for a sick prego!

LOVE MELISSA:) said...

CHecking in to see how you and that baby are doing! xoxo

KERRY said...

Hope you are keeping well Maria...Just checking in with ya!xoxoxo

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